well today, my boyfriend went to south africa to live, which has really put me and him through a lot of pain. should be seeing him in a month though so that will be ok. i love him a lot.
here are some thoughts i had on the way home from the airport...

i feel so bad.sat here on the coach gently sobbing. the tears are rolling down my face and i kinda realise what being in love does to people. i expected it. i knew this day would come. but being ignorant i just let it creep up on me instead of accepting it. i miss him so much and it isn't just the hour i haven't seen him. it's knowing i won't see him for another month at the least. god only knows what i will do if my parents say i cant see him in august.
and i regret not pulling him back and hugging him one last time. i regret not breaking down on his shoulder with a tidal wave of tears. but i won't regret the time we spent together or anything else. i love him with all my heart. i really do. i wish he was here to be my shoulder whilst i cry and let the whole world see how much love there really can be between two men. i want everyone to know. till we meet again my love, my heart will always by yours.